Grapevine Quote of the Day December 6

December 6 "By 1937, some of us realized that AA needed a standard literature. There would have to be a book ... Well, we did quarrel violently over the preparation and distribution of that book. In fact, it took five years for the clamor to die down. Should any AAs dream that the old-timers who put the book together went about in serene meditation and white robes, then they had best forget it." AA Co-Founder, Bill W., November 1951 From: "Services Make AA Tick" The Language of the Heart From the GV book:

Just for Today 12/6/12

I am giving myself an assignment each day to focus on one of the "Just for Today" statements that comes from the program of Al-anon.  We''ll see how "well" I do.  Eventually maybe I'll have a day when they all come together between the kids, the job, the PTO and the rest of chaos I gratefully call My Life.  My attitude is always the best place to start.  Especially in the heat of the Holiday madness.

Today - 12/6/12

Just for Today I will be Happy.  This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, that "Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be."

Makes me think about how much I want to see the new Movie Lincoln.

Happy Thursday Universe,  I'll check in tomorrow.

- Me

Short Bit.... I'm Back :-)

I have missed you, my Blog. My voice out to the endless universe. I have come back :-)

I am not sure where this came from, but it is something on my heart to share today. 

Watch you thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your Destiny.

Back 2 School Madness

So I have been behind in keeping up my posts, but any Mom with kids going back to school will understand!  Trying to figure out new before and after school care, shopping for supplies, dropping off supplies and meeting new teachers, wresting the STRONG WILLED 14 month old Baby brother... I am so glad I chose to do all this in recovery.  Being stoned would distract and make dull some of these amazing moments... the last couple days before my oldest becomes an official 2nd grader...

Wow.

So I read this, hoping to get a good tid-bit to share with the world, and I got exactly what I asked for.  Hope anyone who happens upon this post is able to get something genuine and accept the sincerity in which I am sharing it.

This is a passage from Day 3 in Step 11 of the Life Recovery Devotional.

"The word meditate in the Bible means "to imagine" and "to ponder repeatedly".  The key to winning the battle over obsessive thoughts is to fill our imaginations with images of a life lived according to God's plan  There's a better life for us.  When we begin to "delight in" imagining what that would be like, we will find that we begin to win some of our inner battles.

The more we bask in the joy of God's presence, the more we will discover joy within."

Thank you for this message God.  May it find it's way to a heart that needs to hear it today.

My thought for the day

I got to spend a large portion of my day, shopping through two thrift stores with my oldest son.  My thought for today is pretty simple.  I love being a Mom and I wish this experience on everyone alive.  That's pretty much it.  I can't belive I let drugs and alcohol come first for awhile.  I know today it was because I had big God shaped hole in my heart.  Today God is filling that hole and I get to experience life and all it has in store for me.

I love being a Mom and I wish this experience for everyone.

Friday, My Friend!

There is something about a Friday that is just fantastic.  Before I cleaned my act up, Friday came and always meant that something  was going on, and whatever that thing was, I did not want to miss it. I was kind of like the little kid who can't take a nap when company is over because they are so sure they are going to miss something amazing.

Truth is, especially at the end, there was nothing amazing happening.  Well, nothing short of the fact that I survived it being pretty amazing in itself.

Today, what gets me excited is coming home and knowing I get to spend the next two days with my boys and the love of my life.  Nothing is better than that.  I love Friday.  I love getting more and more "domestic" and tonight, sitting on the couch mending my soon-to-be 2nd graders sweater, watching Wuthering Heights while the hubby is doing night work.  (I always stay up too late when he does!)

There are hundreds of thousands of people chasing that illusive feeling tonight.  That release.  That High.  That one more night of no responsibility, everyone for themselves.  That Love.  That Escape.  Something to fill that HOLE.

A relationship with My God, and freedom through the 12 steps is the only thing I have found that has given me true release.  True Freedom. 

I chose a mortgage, crying teething baby and piles of laundry to the emptiness that my old Friday nights carried.

I love my life today.  Thank you God that you kept my spirit alive inspite of my attempts to drown it out.  I get to love my life today because of you.  Thank you,

Thursday Thought for the Day

The thought of the day today is actually a Prayer taken from "Twenty-Four Hours a Day" by Hazelden Meditations.

"I pray that I may realize Life with out a goal is futile.  I pray that I may find the Good Life worth striving for."